yet another Sunday

Such a sunny Sunday.
I am at my granama's place trying to watch online lecture recording for the lecture i missed.
In a few hour's time, he is going to book in.
But this week will be a rather short one, since Friday's a PH. :) :)Projects are soon to due, tests and exams are round the corner.
Got to start studying real soon.
another round of adventure, here we go again!

-PICTURE SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS-

it's friday, finally.
i used to love doing routined stuffs, but now no more.
ever since i went to uni, there seem to be something missing.
and many people became very unhappy after that.
then the thought comes in again.
what if i dont study? what can i do?
what do i want to be?
questions like these lead me nowhere, and never fail to make me feel lousy.
is this part of growing up?
as seen from photos on fb, many friends already celebrated their 21st bday.
21 yrs old means adulthood, means we can legally make decisions for ourselves without our parents' consent.
but how? i dont even feel like i am 20 yet.
i dont like this transitional period at all.
this sucks.
you have to learn to juggle things around, and even before i can manage the things i have in my hands, new things are thrown in my direction.
i've seen people who cant manage the stress and go crazy.
dont think that will happen to me, but cant help and scare myself with that thought.
i am still in that learning stage, scared and all.
dont quite know how long i can persevere.
persevere is a word i used to like, but now i am scared of it.
:(

ROAR!!!!

i think my actions are way too slow as compared to the things that are moving past me.
my brain isn't as fast as it used to be, and this poses as a problem these days
so much work to be done in that limited amount of time.
i am sleeping lesser than i used to sleep, but still feel that time is not on my side.
didnt really picture life after poly to be this tough.
still cant adapt to this pace yet.
hope things could slow down a little?
just a little bit, i think it will help a lot.
once again, recess week but there isn't much time for us to do our stuffs.
projects alone can suffocate us and we haven't got the time to study for tests.
ohmygoodness.

RECESS WEEK ≠ RECESS WEEK

such ironic contradictions.
zzz.

happy studying and chionging reports/ projects.