i've changed my template and feels so new and more appealing.
but i just can't escape from making it look so pinkish and girly.
perhaps this is to compensate for my not-so-feminine character in real life.
but it's nice (at least to me it is)

i am still working, till mid july and after a week of break my attachment will commence
i really hope i can adapt quick enough there.
also can't help but feel a little nervous since it's the 1st time having IA.
report writing and presentations will be a norm from then on.
and of course i have some goals i want to achieve after that 22 weeks of sian-ness.
many things have to be arranged, i don't know if i can still cope with tuition, since that auntie claimed that starting tuition half an hour later is a BIG deal.
perhaps it's time to stop giving tuition and ask her to find another tutor.
if that happens, it would mean lesser allowance and savings :(
well, still got see how things go.

holidays are gone just like this.
colleagues were curious why i work for such a long while and not give myself a break to enjoy myself.
the reason is because everyone else is busy.
either serving the nation or working.
no one is free to go out and i can't possibly coop myself at home for months.
i think i will experience giddiness everyday.
i tried staying at home and doing nothing except eat, watch dvd, sleep for the 2 weeks after my exams before i got a job.
life was quite horrible back then.
mum got to work, and it made me feel like i am a housewife who does nothing but laze around.
it's a fact that i am lazy, but i can't bring myself to laze around like that.
contradiction.

i think it's time for bed.
my eyebags and dark circles are really terrible now.
and the laptop screen is really straining my eyes.
goodnight.

p/s: i look exactly like this =.= (siap eyes with eye bags)